Is the Moon causing this disturbed feeling in me?
Of late I have slipped into a place in my mind different from thoughts that I usually have. Perhaps it's age - that I have reached a point where more life has been lived than there is left before me. Perhaps it is because I am retired and have more time to ponder the road my life has taken rather than just walking down that road. Whatever the reason I have melancholy thoughts and disturbing dreams about the twists and turns of my life.
I am very happy with the here & now and want to enjoy this particular time of my life. Every day I am grateful that the G-man and I and Gertie Girl (our doggie friend) are in good health, are active, and enjoy being together.
However, I am puzzled by the dreams I've been having in which I relive parts of my past. In most instances it is the feeling or awareness of the times past rather than actual stories and imagery in my dreams. I seem to think it all over in my brain which does not allow for a restful repose.
Renee writes many times about the meaning of dreams and of the imagery that occurs in one's dreams. I don't think I experience the subtle objects that represent various meanings; I think I just go for the remembrance, something that can be referred to as "self butt-kicking". I guess I am kicking my butt about choices made along life's way even when I know darn well that I would not be with this man, in this place, and in this life if things had gone differently.
Perhaps it is the pull of the full moon about which Reya & Willow have recently written that has enhanced my dreams. I'd like whatever is causing my distress to take a backseat for a while. I'd like to simply enjoy this time on this planet.
