Yesterday afternoon was sunny and chilly here, quite like it is today. The outdoors beckoned and I lit a fire in the chiminea on the patio. It is an easy way to burn pine needles and small branches without starting a huge fire that I have to watch over for hours.
The G-man was shooting hoops, Gertie was snooping and I had my latest mystery novel. When not reading but staring into the fire I mulled over the situation that a friend is going through. I am not as good a friend as I should be. Maybe as we get older it is more difficult to reach out to a person in need. I fear I am more self-centered than I would like to be. I seem to be wrapped up in my own little life with the G-man & the Gert.
Maybe I spend too much time online or writing & reading or just goofing off and am not making the time for my friend. I have no way to help except to listen; however, sometimes listening is difficult. The problem never changes, there seems to be no solution, and I have never been one to handle helplessness. I should learn to handle it because there are some things that one just has to accept; some things can't be changed; some events occur over which there is little control and it is unlikely there will be a satisfactory outcome.
Recently we parted on tenuous grounds with me having said something she didn't want to hear and her becoming angry because I said it. We will most likely get through this little upset. I will have to remind myself to stand back, listen, and not offer unsolicited comments. I always want to be the fix-it person but being able to fix something is not always possible.
I have left a message of apology which will be heard and hopefully will help to soothe hurt feelings. Now I think I'll cook or bake something to refocus my mind. It is too pretty a day to be sad. Refocusing...
